Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Not Quite Burnout 

OK, I am a turd.

Sheesh, what the heck was wrong with me?

Too long, I was away too damn long.

First off, I'm sorry. I have this habit of retreating inward when life gets stressful. I talk to friends and family less. I blog less. Since stresses in life aren't likely to stop anytime soon, this is something I should get over. Sigh...

Plus I need to worry less about having to sound so damn profound. Talking is often just enough.

OK, so what have I been up to?

Mom had bladder surgery, but she's doing OK. That happened last week. I went back to Fresno to be with her at the hospital, plus I returned over the weekend. It's not easy to be reminded of your parents' mortality (even though it was relatively minor surgery). It must be so much harder for parents to see their kids in the hospital, to think the same things about them.

Moving sucks. I just got the last of my stuff in place the weekend before the surgery. It's not like I buy a lot of things over the years. I end up inheriting a lot of this junk. Either from my mom, who hordes to make up for a meager childhood, or from work. The best thing about your company going under is all the free stuff. I have a biotech lab quality waterbath that I use to thaw out my frozen food. Why not, what other opportunity would I have to get a waterbath? Yeah, but moving and organizing all that stuff can be a pain.

Personal stuff. Not going into excruciating detail (you never know which people will someday read the blog). Suffice it to say, it can be hard when something you want lies just out of reach, due to bad timing and/or lack of mutual interest. But we talk, we share, and if I end up with a new close friend....Well, there certainly are worse things, aren't there? Someday there will be someone; in the meantime I'm not going to moap....much.

Other than that, work is work, news happens, and life goes on. I will work better at being more specific than that from now on (..New Year's Resolution, anyone??)

Take care all: those who I've known for years pre-blog, and those who live thousands of miles away who I've never even met face to face and yet do care. And hello to the random strangers who wander through. May I work to do better to let you all in a little more often.

And may you all come up with new snarky posts while in your pajamas.

Sorry to hear about your mom. Reality is hard to face some days. And I hope things work out in your life as well. But I still didn't see any good begging for not posting. ;-)
dude you blogged!
Glad to see a new post! I think I'd actually stopped checking very often, which is why I'm leaving a comment so long after you posted. Then again, there should already be another post up since then! No more slacking off!

This blog just happens to be the closest thing I get to the Ben, w/o being around the Ben...I kind of miss the Ben, too.

Hope you're having a very Merry Christmas, and a happy holiday season :)
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